Well, hello there, strangers.

    

This weekend I was just sort of bumming around, being all bum-like, and feeling all bummie. It's a problem I'm trying to work on. I've been noticing lately that my number of followers is slowly creeping up (Yay!), and while I was lounging around in dirty clothes and watching ANTM repeats I was thinking, "Wouldn't it be great if I got 30 followers?" And you know what? IT TOTALLY IS GREAT! 

Today I hit that magical number (remember when I thought 30 was a super-cool age too? I'll get back there again... I'm sure of it... I hope). I was super-excited. So...

Welcome Followers! I'm so happy you're here. I'll be honest, I'm slightly shocked that I've gained new followers over the last few weeks since I find myself to be in a seriously deep sink-hole of despair. I must be doing something right though, right? I promise you, new followers, I'm not always this negative. I'm just at a really tricky crossroads right now. At any rate, welcome. I appreciate you all, new and old.

So, I wish I had some fun and exciting news to share with you. Or some fun and exciting story to tell you. Alas, I do not. My weekend was super-unproductive. I never made it to the mall (not that i really thought I would) and I didn't do any laundry (I still have clean underwear, so... it can wait a few more days). I worked some more on my painting, which could possibly explain why I didn't get anything else accomplished. You see, whenever I'm in "work-zone" I tend to stay up into the wee hours, toiling away at whatever task I'm working on until 2 or 3 am. Here's another sneak peek...

It's so pretty. Did I mention I'm excited about it? Yeah, I am. I think I'm actually going to finish it (*knock on wood*).

In other news, you know how I was working so hard on my thesis, pouring my blood, sweat, and tears into grad school? Well, apparently all my hard work has paid off. Not only will I be graduating in ten days, I'm also getting some sort of award. Or something like that. Yay for me! There's going to be a ceremony and everything. I get to bring two guests, but apparently they don't really want anyone to show since the ceremony is from 2:00-4:00 pm... on a Friday afternoon. Guess they don't realize that real people are at work then (I'm not one of those real people. I'll be attending. What else have I got to do?). Here's the fancy invite they emailed me...

So yeah. That's that. I haven't really told anyone about this. I don't think it's that big of a deal (although the secretary in my department said it was. Eh.). Believe it or not, I'm not a huge fan of attention. In fact, I hate it. Wait, let me clarify that. I LOVE attention on a one-on-one basis and even in small group situations, but I don't like being a part of large groups of people and receiving attention. Which is probably why I won't be walking during graduation. I hated having to walk for undergrad, I certainly don't want to do it again for grad school. I really hate awards ceremonies too, so I'm kind of surprised that I'm going to this one. It probably helps that I don't anticipate knowing anyone there.

In other news... I saw Mr. Bum this morning. I was kind of surprised seeing as how cold it's been lately. I thought he preferred warm days, but what do I know. Anyway, Mr. Bum was crossing the intersection on his way to set-up his station. He had a cup of coffee in his hand (again, I think it's coffee). I took a quick trip to the grocery store this weekend and I made sure to have a few dollars cash with me. I felt kind of bad about bashing Mr. Bum lately, so I wanted to give him a few bucks (that and I didn't want Karma to catch up with me down the road and bite me in the ass. Karma has a tendency to do that). Well, Mr. Bum was nowhere to be seen. I was surprised since it was kind of, sort of warm out this weekend. Maybe it was too windy for him. Oh well, maybe next time. Maybe I'll invite him to the ceremony. I imagine there will be free food.

Ah well. Again, welcome new (and old) followers. I look forward to getting to know you all better. And to those of you non-followers who pop by from time to time, thanks for dropping in!

Dear Saturday,

You're lovely. This morning I slept in. If you count 8am as sleeping in. I awoke to a lovely thunderstorm. I actually really enjoy thunderstorms. And then I stayed in bed until 2pm, watching an ANTM marathon on the Oxygen channel (Cycle 14, which I really enjoyed. New judges... extra super-duper catty contestants). Yes, that's right, 2pm. Whatever. I totally can. Not like I've got anything else going on right now (did I mention I'm in a total funk lately?). That's when I decided to finally jump in the shower. Yay for me. Today has been highly unproductive, which is A-okay with me. I'm just happy I made it to the shower. I did some job searching as well. That was super fun. Seems no one's in the market for an art teacher lately. What're ya gonna do? I also worked on my painting some more. Here's another sneak peek...

Again, I'm super excited about how it's turning out. Presently (aside from painting) I'm watching The Holiday on TBS. I happen to really love this movie (don't tell anyone, please. I have a reputation to maintain. You know, that of an unloving, non-romantic, cold-hearted girl). I can't even begin to tell you how much I like this movie. It breaks my heart. I think I ♥ Jude Law too. But that's a post for another day.

Tomorrow I'm hoping to do some laundry and I 'm contemplating taking a trip to the mall to find some work clothes that actually fit me. There's nothing more embarrassing than subbing in a 7th grade art room and having to constantly pull your pants up. We'll see. I figure tomorrow might be a good day to go shopping. Seeing as how it's Mother's Day and all, everyone should be at home, enjoying the day, right?

In the meantime, I'm going to continue painting, enjoy my whiskey and try not to be an obsessive texter, which, at the moment, is really, really hard to do. I suppose we've all been there though, right?

Yeah...

Whoa! What happened to Friday?

  

Really. What DID happen to Friday? I could have sworn I posted on Friday. I didn't? I don't get it. How did that happen? What's today? SATURDAY? Damn! Where did the week go? Oh... right... I've been in a funk and when I get in a funk I lose all track of time and days and of myself. WTF, self?

So here's the deal, I'm truly bummed out. I can't even begin to explain why. I mean, I think I know why, in fact, I know I know why, but I'm pretty sure if I begin to explain it we would all end up heading down a road we don't really want to go. At least not together. Well, I know you won't want to go there with me. Me? I'm pretty much okay with going it alone. (I know, right? WTF? Sorry.)

As you may or may not know, I finally finished my thesis (well, I'm still procrastinating on the last round of revisions, but I've got until next week to turn it in, so... plenty of time. No worries.). Finishing my thesis means I'll be graduating in May, yay. Wait, what? It IS May already? Damn. I really am out of sync with time. Fine. I guess I'll be graduating in two weeks. No biggie. 

Except, it sort of is a biggie, because what the fuck am I going to do then? I want a job, but I don't want a job. I want to move, but I don't want to move. I want to aimlessly wander the world until I finally find a place that feels like home enough that I might actually want to stay there for longer than a year, but I don't want to aimlessly wander. I want love, but I don't want love. Oh, wait. We weren't gonna go there, were we? Sorry.

I thought being at this crossroads would be more exciting for me, but it's not. It's not like it's even scary though. It's just... eh. I really don't know where I'm headed next, and I've been pretty much ignoring the fact that this is something I really need to be thinking about and addressing. Like, ASAP. But not tonight. Mainly because it's actually the morning, and I should really be getting to bed. Not that I have anything exciting to do tomorrow. At any rate...

Seeing as how it's the end of the semester, the BFA and MFA students are having their thesis shows. I went to one tonight (and one last Friday night). It was okay. Not as great as last week's, but it inspired me to start painting again. Well, that and the new Anthropologie catalog I picked up tonight at the post office.

So, I started a painting tonight. I'm really, really excited with the way it's turning out. Here's a sneak preview (sorry about the poor picture quality. I live in a cave.):

In case you're wondering, yes, I am painting on a deconstructed brown bag from a liquor store. And yes, said bag was acquired this evening when I stopped at the liquor store to purchase a bottle of whiskey. I really needed it. And yes, it's the same liquor store from this story. But no, Mr. Bum was not present this evening, despite the glorious weather. Maybe he was snagging free food at the opening for the BFA show tonight. Who knows. I know that's why I went. Not that I got any food. It was all gone by the time I got there (and I got there ten minutes after the thing started. Guess artists really are starving). 

At any rate, I intend on reconstructing the bag once the painting is complete. Like I said, I'm really excited about this painting. If I ever get around to finishing it, I'll post a pic. In the meantime, good night, sleep tight, don't let the bed bugs bite.

Retro-Cool

      

I have concluded that I want an all-white kitchen with splashes of color. You know, when I finally decide to settle in somewhere. I think a white kitchen would be the perfect canvas for someone like me. Someone who constantly yearns for change. I'm currently obsessed with three VERY retro colors, and I'm dying to put them in my (future) kitchen...

AVOCADO!!!

I have these bowls, but one is busted. So sad.

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TURQUOISE!!!

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RED-ORANGE!!!

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I'm imagining something like this (but with a splash of red-orange)...

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And I ♥ the idea of painting the interior of the kitchen cabinets. Like this...

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And I absolutely, positively HAVE to have these in my kitchen. I realize this would be a pretty big commitment, but I cannot express how much I want these...

They're available in many, awesome, retro colors. I'm not entirely sold on the avocado; the color possibilities are endless! Sweet!

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(I think my ceramic ducks would fit in perfectly!)

(Ooh! And my ceramic Lincoln Logs too! I'm super-psyched!)